Thoughts

Too many thoughts flying around my head right now.   Been sick for a week, just starting to get back into the swing of things.  I want to start writing at regular intervals.  Thinking of starting the book.   I think it's quite presumptious of me to think that I can write a book given my limited experience, but if anything I think of it more as a way to reflect on my thought pattern at this time.

One thing is for damned sure, gotta get unlazy.

So I haven't really thrown any updates on here in a while so I thought I'd do it up.  First off I got the job, woot!!!  I am now the master planner/scheduler for SatCon Power systems!  I received a nice pay raise and got myself in with the production manager.  It's quite a bit of work at the moment but it's all good.  I'm enjoy the challenge although I'm starting to wear down a bit.

I've also moved!  I moved in with my Sister so I'm back in the hammer again...  Dunno if this will work out but we'll see.  At least this cuts down on my commute time, which is very nice.

I bought a bunch of clothes and a new watch :) , bought a laptop I probably don't really need... lol  Probably going to buy some more clothes this weekend... lol sawwwwweeeeeeeeeeet

Not sure what I'm going to do this weekend.  I more than likely have to work this weekend.  I want to come up with a base capacity schedule.  Maybe not fully integrated but something along those lines.  We'll see, I kind of want to get bombed as well..... decisions, decisions...

So my parents company was up for entrepeneur award sponsored by the Brantford Chamber of Commerce.  Competing against 2 other companies, one of which is owned by my God Father (my actual God Father I'm catholic)  the other was a Grand River tour company.   Turns out that the tour company won and with good reason.  The man started the company from nothing, with no background in canoes or tourism.

The loss aside, I couldn't believe the amount of contact making, the MP was there and spoke with my Father and my Sister, lawyers, other business owners, mayor, multiple bank executives and the list goes on.  All of them came up to congratulate my parents on the success of their business/nomination and either offered services and/or business cards.  The realization being, connections in this world are everything.

At the same time it was a bit of a sobering moment for myself.  My parents owning a company and my sister a successful doctor, much more conversation was spent with them as opposed to me.  I am the son who only "dabbles" in the family business, who works for a medium sized company in Burlington as part of the purchasing team.  While in reality my responsibilities are greater than that of a purchaser, attempting to convey that in such a brief amount of time is difficult to say the least.  Needless to say the most conversation I received was a firm handshake, obligatory interest in my brief explanation of what it was I did and then a re-focus on my parents or my sister.

C'est la vie... I am not yet a person who can command the interest of professionals of such a high calibre.  I'll admit that I was a bit ashamed to tell others what I did, that I still lived at home with my parents, that I was not involved in the company.  Unfortunately for me my true potential has only started to become realized over these past 2 years.  It is this that dedication to my job and the workplace politics that has earned me the interview this Friday.  It is my devotion to improving my performance and the performance of the company that has gained the attention of not only my manager but the managers of other departments as well.

I have come to the realization that my career will not be in full swing until I'm at least mid to late 30's.  I have much much more to learn about workplace politics as well as honing my ability to develop and improve systems.  The contacts and opportunities are there, now it comes down to effort.  Hopefully I can start my MBA within the next 2 years and after that the sky is the limit.

For now I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing.  With any luck I'll get this position and from there I'll be able to write my own ticket.  The beauty part being that I'll be able to directly affect operations of a growing division in a public company.  That pretty much translates into a whole lot of possibility, not just within my division but within others as well, recognition on a scale much greater than anything I could hope for at this stage in my life (given my weak past).

So, for now I'll introduce myself as a member of the purchasing team at SatCon.  But mark my words, this time 2 years from now it'll be a whole new ball game!

I've learned 2 things this week:

1) Mini quiches were never meant to be eaten in bulk.

2) Work place politics is a complete debocle.

Things seem to be shaping up nicely, keep ya posted!

Well as it turns out no one was interviewed for the job nor was there any feedback given to HR on the candidates.  So now I'll wait it out as HR has told me that they'll tell me if they hear anything.  Regardless, my contract is up in 3 weeks so I'm starting to shop for a new job, just in case.  I've learned not to count on anything unless I have it in hand, a rule that any good business man abides by.

On a lighter note I went to the Toronto Zoo this weekend with my buddies hehe.  I've been wanting to go for a while because I've never been to a zoo and I'm a nature program junkie.  Some of the animals weren't out because it's still a bit cold but it was still pretty cool.  All of the animals will be out on May 17th so I think I'll go back then, should be mad fun!

It was nice to not think about work this weekend.  Ever since I've started this job my mind has been running a mile a minute.  Breaking down different situations and trying to predict how each person will react and what their immediate and long term goals are.  I'll get back into it this week, should be interesting.

I find myself lacking balance.  My new job and prospects are dominating my time and eating away at my sanity.  I'm thinking about taking up a hobby.  Painting models or swimming again, something along those lines.  My desire to succeed is just overwhelming at this point.  Probably because I did so poorly in school and I'm worried about becoming a bum.  Either way I need something to take my mind off work and slow it down a bit, not a lot though, just a bit hehe.  I find myself driven beyond belief to work hard and acheive and my natural aggression is helping to push me through.  I'm lucky enough to realize that aggression only works for so long.  For now I'll use it but eventually I'll have to become more efficient with my time.

Slowly learning to be patient, learning to accept the things I can't change and it's making me a much calmer person.  All in all things are slowly starting to come together.  Just takes time.